Thursday, May 31, 2007

Words Of Wisdom

Well, for those of you who feel that you're stuck or at a dead end and can't figure out why everything's happening all at once, these are some words for you. They aren't mine, I just got it from my e-mail. Words of hope for ya'll. Read and think. =)

Sometimes people come into your life and you know right away that they were meant to be there. To serve some sort of purpose, teach you a lesson or help figure out who you are or who you want to become.

You never know who these people may be but when you lock eyes with them, you
know that very moment that they will affect your life in some profound way.
And sometimes things happen to you at the time that may seem horrible,
painful and unfair, but in reflection you realize that without overcoming
those obstacles you would have never realized your potential, strength, will
power or heart.

Everything happens for a reason. Nothing happens by chance or by means of
good luck. Illness, injury, love, lost moments of true greatness and sheer
stupidity all occur to test the limits of your soul. Without these small
tests, life would be like a smoothly paved, straight, flat road to nowhere.
Safe and comfortable but dull and utterly pointless.

The people you meet affect your life. The successes and downfalls that you
experience can create who you are, and the bad experiences can be learned
from. In fact, they are probably the most poignant and important ones.

If someone hurts you, betrays you or breaks your heart, forgive them because
they have helped you learn about trust and the importance of being cautious
to whom you open your heart.

If someone loves you, love them back unconditionally, not only because they
love you, but because they are teaching you to love and to open your heart
and eyes to little things. Make every day count.

Appreciate every moment and take from it everything that you possibly can,
for you may never be able to experience it again. Talk to people you have never talked to before, and actually listen. Let
yourself fall in love, break free and set your sights high.

Hold your head up because you have every right to. Tell yourself you are a
great individual and believe in yourself, for if you don't believe in
yourself, no one else will believe in you. Create your own life and then go
out and live it.

"If you take your eyes off your goals, all you see are obstacles."

Wednesday, May 30, 2007

In The Middle Of A Coin

I'm not really alone. But I do feel it. I'm not really sad. But I feel that as well. There's always two sides on everything. Just like a coin, a sheet of paper...

I don't know what I'm doing, when I could do something better. I don't know why I hate myself, when no one hates me at all. I don't know why I seek for attention, when the attention is enough. 'Cause I know some people don't have any attention at all. I don't know why I think I'm right when actually I'm in the wrong. I don't know why I feel so different from all of you...

But I do know that I have no intention of hurting anyone. When I seem evil, I might just be selfish yet not knowing my actions may hurt. I'm in a rut, a whirlpool of confusion, anything that gets me stuck. I'm stuck. So many choices to make but just one will set most things off. Why can't life be easy? No, on second thought, maybe I don't really want it to be easy. Cause without complications, where's the fun, right? No times to look back, smile and say, "I got through that. I won."

I'm sure many of you might be wondering what the heck I'm talking 'bout. Well, I have this tendency of spilling everything in public yet keeping the contents a secret. Yeah, so I like to be like that, so what? Where's the fun when there's no mystery? And I'm so so so sorry for wasting your time. If you actually read through all this. I'm just trying to release some of what's inside of me. Okay, I'll stop babbling now before your poor poor brain looses an IQ.

Monday, May 28, 2007

Outside Looking In

Solitude. That's where we all are. No matter how many jokes, how many smiles, how many laughters that are rung... we always have our times of solitude. And it always come with a dark cloud of many negative questions looming over our heads. Why?

Look to the left, look to the right, and you'll find your friends beside you. But are they with you? In your world? They can't be... because they're in theirs. No one really understands... no one can understand what is it you are going through. You sit in the dark, wondering, pondering, what's happening now? No one cares now. You're all alone with that insistent dark cloud over your head. Everyone else is moving, not caring, not noticing. You're just watching.

Just a person behind a glass window, outside in the pouring rain, looking in.

Sunday, May 20, 2007

Shopping Is Not For Me

Here's a little update. I'm not a girl who shops much or even likes to shop for that matter. In fact, I just don't enjoy shopping. I didn't think much of it at first. So maybe I'm this weird girl who doesn't like shopping. But when I went 1U today with my mom to meet up with my godma and godsis, I remembered why. Shopping makes me depressed. Why? I can't get clothes my size or clothes that actually suits me. Oh OK, I can. But basically I just can't wear what girls my age would be wearing...

So I spent like *counts* half the day in 1U, looking at clothes that were way out of my budget, elegant but not for me, cute but also not for me, nice but too big, small but colour that doesn't suit me. And then when we had a break, my mom already had her clothes, my godsis was satisfied with her shirts and my godmom satisfied with her brand new watch. And me? I'm to console myself with mashed potato. I suddenly felt like a super-thin-board-non-feminine-like creature because whatever I try (even if it's the SMALLEST size), it's still loose. I felt ugly.

I was just about to give up looking for my clothes. Just get my friend's shirt (it's a birthday present that I wanted to buy long ago) and go home. But my godsis dragged me to this shop called Plastic and chose a few shirts. And guess what? They fit and it looks nice! Guess what again? It cost a bomb! So ok, I told the shop girl there that I'll think about it and went outta da shop. Next was Body Glove. After much thinking and trying on shirts, I finally decided to settle on 2 shirts (one black and another army green) for RM70. Which brings me to one conclusion: I can only wear casual clothes that are branded and expensive. And I cannot, in anyway, touch clothes that are formal, feminine, and elegant.

Now how depressing is that? Ah well, I'm a little cheered up now. At least I got my shirts and have this new found proof that black does not make me look any skinnier. I think I'll buy more dark clothes now. Will suit my mood when I do happen to go shopping again (which won't happen unless I'm shopping for a friend's present... but that won't make me depressed). And what am I doing here? I have CHEMISTRY and ADD MATHS TOMORROW. I'm a skinny pig.

Thursday, May 10, 2007

Personality Test

How true can a personality test be? Oh well, took this out of curiousness.
Get To Know Yourself Better

Your view on yourself:

Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They'll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

Thursday, May 3, 2007

The Stork Has Come

Its wings spreaded to its full length and soon it was on its way through the air, with a slightly heavy bundle in its beak. Several moments later, it reached a house and placed the little bundle at the door. Saying a few blessings and prayers, it spreaded its wings again and flew away...

What am I crapping about? My brother and his wife is expecting a baby!!! It's ON IT'S WAY!!! She's two months pregnant I think cause the baby is due in december! Woohoo! December baby! I'm going to be an aunt! OMG.

My mom gave me the shock after chatting on the phone with my brother. She was like, "Joanna, guess what?"


"You're going to be an aunt."

"AAAHHH??? Mee Kin jie jie's pregnant?!?" then followed with my cheerings and my mom's laughter. My dad was like, "So fast going to be grandpa. Ohmygod."


Vectors Give Good Blood Flow

Ladies and gentlemen, Kien has blushed for the second time in her life. And this time she didn't know it until a slightly irritating person sitting beside her today told her. What was the cause? Something very small and very stupid. Really. I don't even know why I started blushing. And to explain the situation, I have to teach those you readers a little Add Maths!!! Don't worry. This topic is really easy. So for those younger readers (and older readers), this is a little bonus for you. You're gonna learn (or revise) a little Form 5 Add Maths.

Topic for today: Vectors.

Okay. First off, this thing touches slightly on Physics. We have scalar quantity and vector quantity. Scalar quantity is a quantity that has only magnitude (something you can count. A measurement. i.e. 4km). Vector quantity has both magnitude and direction (i.e. 4km towards the south). When you have two parallel vectors, you can find a resultant vector. Like in this diagram. We have vectors p and q. The resultant vector is p+q. This is called the triangle law which I use so often in completing my work.

Another example with X, Y, and Z as points:

So if I want to get the resultant vector of XY, I have to plus XZ and ZY together. Get me? Then later in this subject you have to get the measurements and blablabla but I'm not gonna explain it here or your poor brains will go KABOOM! So my question is this diagram:

And I'm trying to find OR. To find OR, I have to find a bunch of other vectors. One of them is OS. After I've done everything, my answers turn out to be different from the answer from the back of the textbook (I'm not cheating, just checking). So beside me happens fo be the "Add Maths Pro" and he checked for me too. For a few moments, we were puzzled. Like trying to piece together jigsaws that don't fit. He looked again. Then he pointed to my work.


Can anyone find something wrong here? That's right. After he pointed, he said something and that something struck me as funny. I burst out laughing at my mistake, covering my face in the process. I almost laughed til my tears came out (something must be wrong with my hormones today). And the person sitting beside me was like, "Eh, you blush wor!!!"

I didn't believe him. I don't easily blush. But he insisted that I did and my ears were the colour of a tomato. He's gonna make me remember this (=.="). And Von, if you're reading this, he said now you're not the only one who blushes. You've got company! Well, I don't think I'll be blushing anytime soon. It's very rare that I do. Unless I am out in the sun exercising. So nono... NO ONE is gonna make me blush. Never!!!

So there you have it. A blushing day in the life of a um... non-blusher.