Long Road

A stretch of disappointments... that lasts a few days. I know it'll all soon fade away. Maybe, one day. But is this normal? There's so many things that we don't see eye to eye. We have needs... but I'm not sure if you understand my needs? I'm not even sure if I understand your needs?

I'm not a person of complete logic. I don't go by the book and stay on the straight path the whole way. I believe in branching out and experiencing things or thinking thoughts never experienced or thought before. We make a complimenting couple... but somehow I feel that I can't fully connect emotionally with you? It could be such a long way more before I truly can.



I'm not a person who would be able to support you financially. Take me as a child in the form of a young adult, it doesn't matter. Because at the back of my head, I know I am. Yes, in some ways I am naive. I'm a complete ignorant on the wicked ways of life. But I believe in holding unto moral values. Values that I hold so dear to my heart. I believe in the term called, "Hope". Hope for me should be high... or I wouldn't even be surviving right now. Because I'm a naturally weak person. I think. With those values and hope I try to help you with, whether you actually wanted it or not.

Because I care.

But I don't know if you see it. I don't know if you realise it. I'm a person who can't do much for the physical world. I can, however, help with the psychological one. If you need a source for comfort, a source of comfortable advices, I am always here. I'm a person who'd go through great lengths, albeit stupid, to get everything to fall into place again. Because I care. I don't mind helping with your self-esteem or your current troubles. I care for your future mental health, emotional wise. But I can't do much for your pride. A pride that will grow big one day and in danger of being destroyed. If I've helped in anyway on your emotional side, I feel accomplished. I feel like I've actually been of use. Other than that, I'm utterly useless... so how do I show my love to you in a way that you understand?

I actually logged on to talk about something deeper and clearer for you to understand. But it turns out my brain is whacked. I can't form the correct sentence. I'm repeating myself. Words are lost.

My words are always lost.

I'm sorry for that. For not making you understand.